I honestly can’t believe how anyone could see the background of turning Pam into vampire as her forcing Eric to turn her and therefore her doing somethingwrong. I feel like I was watching a totally different scene. 

Throughout all the flashbacks with these two, all I kept thinking was how depressed and victimized she was. Yes - she was something “different”, a woman Eric saw as his equal and worthy of his affection, but she was destined to live a life of somebody much less important. Yes - her profession was giving her a sense of independence. Being a house-mother put her above all her girls and practically made her a “businesswoman” of her times. But still, however she was living her life at the moment, it didn’t change the fact that her life was going to end as miserably as every single one of these whores. And what I find even more tragic about it, is the fact she was so deeply aware of it. All these girls: simple, uncomplicated, maybe even happy with what they had (although it’s a generalisation, I’m aware of that) were in better position than her, being able to live their life only in a moment, not thinking that, despite their efforts, they’re going to end up alone, sick, waiting for their disgusting death. That is, if they’re not going to get killed before that. 

So here we have Pam, living the life that was only an illussion of being in control, meeting Eric. A man dangerous, possibly deadly, wearing a mask of mysteriousness and sexiness. A vampire.

We shouldn’t also forget the fact she met Lorena and Bill as well. To her, vampires as a race epitomized freedom, endless possibilities of doing whatever one wants, being able to travel between places within seconds - to the woman who’s been trapped in one place and situation for far too long it must have been a tempting life. 

But yeah, back to Eric. He did not behave as a common customer and Pam knew it. He came, because he was intrigued. He defended her and her business by throwing away Lorena and Bill and making them apologize to Pam (because we know he didn’t care much for the girls, probably). He actually made love to her, instead of using her as a whore - to the point where he stayed with her afterwards, caressing her and talking with her as with somebody he’s already known for quite a while. Don’t tell me the atmosphere between them wasn’t already intimate! He didn’t insult her because he felt like it, but because he was trying to push her away for her own good. He knew the price she would have to pay for becoming a vampire and was sure she wouldn’t want a life like this. 

But this is the point. Pam was ready to die. Well, obviously, if she decided to help herself, she wouldn’t have bleed out because of wounds like this, but I am 90% sure that if Eric left her like this, she wouldn’t have tried to save herself. If she didn’t meet Eric, she probably would have been able to keep living like this (where “keep living” is almost equal to “vegetation”). But she did meet him. And she saw what she could have had, what she should have had. 

She didn’t force him to turn her; she forced him to make a choice. Something entirely different. He was not a new vampire, okay? He was not extremely fond of humans as well. He could have left her there. If he didn’t want to be responsible for her death - he could have given her his blood to heal her cuts. But that’s it. Nothing and nobody in the world forced him into making her his child. He was deeply aware of a responsibility it was, he said himself he would have never abandonded his child. And he agreed to do it. In a way, her cutting herself was a way of asking for it and he responded to it. He had a choice. So did she. And they both made it. 

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